Posted by Anonymous on 2015/07/24 under Uncategorized I’ve been crying by myself lately. I just don’t know what to do. It feels like things aren’t going my way. Well, I know everything’s not supposed to go my way. The universe isn’t always on my side. I know there are things that aren’t for me and the things that are happening to me shouldn’t always be good. But ???? I don’t know anymore. It feels like all my life I’ve been selfless. I always offer things to other people. I don’t have something or anything to give to myself. It’s always been for someone whether family or friends, sometimes, even strangers. I don’t have anything for me. But also, I feel like I’ve been so selfish. That there are times that I only think about myself and for the betterment of me. And then there’s my family. Sure we had tough times but we’re a complete happy family. But lately it seems like they’re always angry. I don’t know what is the cause of this but they’re just so angry. I’ve always been irritable so they thought I was angry too. Everyone’s shouting. Shouting at each other. One is always bringing people down, the other’s always mad at me for some reason. I honestly don’t know what to do or what to feel. As a talkative person as I am inside the house, I tried to just stay quiet because I don’t want to be involved in this kind of situation. And now they think I’m sad. I don’t even smile, I don’t even talk. All I know is this is because of them. I don’t want them telling me that I’m sticking my nose to their business. I am very sensitive and I could crumble if I hear something negative about me. But I try to cope. I try my best to not get it into me and make it my strength. I’m just sad to the core. But maybe this is all in my head. Maybe it will get better soon.
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You sound like me. I think that it is hard for us to just see negativity and little something goes wrong.. we feel defeated and upset. I know i can’t change family. I can smile and be in my world. Tell others don’t be angry pls. I want to throw a kiss to people who want to flip me a finger. I sometimes want to be in my cocoon and other times i feel alone and want somebody to just smile with me. One of the things in life I discovered is how we give in to our emotions. I think we need to just smile and take life. yeah things aren’t going our way.. But we can do other things to feel better. I think you should paint. express yourself to yourself and let out some of those feelings. I am going to do that today. Buy me oil paints.
same here.i really cant find any reason to live just like you,but hey,guess what?this guy isn’t going to give up! and i hope you wont too,bcs i know that there’s something that will someday make me happy;maybe that something is a person,maybe it’s a place for me to be.you should find yours.best of luck my frined.and dont give up.ever.cheers.marx
same here.i really cant find any reason to live just like you,but hey,guess what?this guy isn’t going to give up! and i hope you wont too,bcs i know that there’s something that will someday make me happy;maybe that something is a person,maybe it’s a place for me to be.you should find yours.best of luck my frined.and dont give up.ever.